A child born in autumn
Kalla or akiko
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o_O 'cuz I don't sleep and need an artistic outlet
Top graphic from Boyis
My Other Sites:
- Personal Homepage
akiko no kokoro
- Innermost thoughts
Aki no Shaseichyou
- My Artwork
Akiko no Kawaii Mono
- My Fanlistings, Adoptions and all things kawaii!!
Aki no Kotoba
- My poetry and short stories
- Information on Metaphysics and Spirit
Aki no Shiken
- My Quiz Results
French, German, Japanese
A strings teacher in urban public schools
Pet Peeve 1:
People who can't drive...they only have two pedals and I have three, I just don't understand the confusion.
Pet Peeve 2:
Stupid people; not people who just haven't learned or are challenged. I'm talking about the people who make you go insane to the point you want to add chlorine to the gene pool.
Pet Peeve 3:
Poorly designed webpages. For example, the site with a nice image, but no navigation or menu bar. Those drive me insane--what's the point? But most importantly, those pages that I can't read. I'm not totally happy with my own design, so I've done extensive looking around on the net, and have ran into WAYYY too many sites that were unreadable. By unreadable, I mean they have:
1. extreme color overload,
2. frames so small you have to scroll forever
3. a background that is so busy or too close to the text color that you can't see the text
4. spazzin' out to the point you're going to make someone have a seizure or motion sickness
5. font that is either too small, to big, overlapping or a CoMbInAtIoN that makes it frustrating at best to try to read.
+Lord of the Rings, J.R.R. Tolkien
+The Whipping Girl, Soriano
+Wheel of Time Series, Rober Jordan
+Chronicles of the Cheysuli, Jennifer Roberson
+The Sun Sword Series, Michelle West
+Ruins of Ambrai, Mageborn Traitor, Melanie Rawn
+Le Petit Prince, Anton de Sainte-Exupery
+Yu Yu Hakusho
+Cold Case Files
+Most Extreme Elimination Challenege
+Lord of the Rings...drrr
+National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation
+Night at the Roxbury
+Life is Beautiful
+hotaru no haka (Grave of the Fireflies)
+ Inu Yasha Translations
+ Hilarious Critique of the Animated LotR
+ Small Site, but has a very humorous Evolution of Fluffy
+ All You Need to Know About Macs
+ Mac Images
+ Great place to find or be insulted--in many languages
+ Lyrics to Most Anime Songs
+ Rurouni Kenshin Translations
+ Engrish--interesting translations from Japan
+ Northern Sun--Progressives Retail Catalog
+ DevGuru--Good resource site
+ Dynamic Drive--another good resource site.
Please click on the sprite to visit their adoption center!
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--...Qu'est-ce que signifie 'apprivoiser'?...Creer des liens?"
--Bien sur, dit le renard. Tu n'es encore pour moi qu'un petit garcon tout semblable a cent mille petits garcons. Et je n'ai pas besion de toi. Et tu n'as pas besion de moi non plus. Je ne suis pour toi qu'un renard semblable a cent mille renards. Mais, si tu m'apprivoises, nous aurons besion l'un de l'autre. Tu seras pour moi unique au monde. Je serai pour toi unique au monde...
~~Antoine de Saint-Exupery, conversation between le petit prince and le renard in Le Petit Prince
--Il est tres simple: on ne voit bien qu'avec le coeur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.
~Antoine de Saint-Exupery, dit par le renard
Kenshin: It's no use. I can't find it. The answer--how to atone for the crimes I committed as a hitokiri. I can't find it!
(Oibore looks at him for a long moment.)
Oibore: Is that so. Even with your weak, confused heart, you won't let go of what you're holding so tight in your hand . . .
(Kenshin looks down at the sword.)
Oibore: You lose what's most precious to you . . . exhaust yourself body and soul. But if you have something you can't bring yourself to throw away, whatever anyone says, that's your only truth.
Kenshin Thinking: There's one thing I can do. Protect the happinesses of the people I see before me.
If one sword can still catch people's eyes, than it's enough to protect.
People are suffering all around me. Whatever the reason, I can't let them be.
(Oibore picks up the little bottle and puts the stopper back in.)
Oibore: I guess we've thought enough about the past. Now . . . and from now on . . . the people who never stopped believing in you are waiting for your return!
(Kenshin seizes the hilt of the sword and pulls it free of the sheath, breaking the chains that held it.)
~from Rurouni Kenshin
"I wish the ring had never come to me...I wish none of this had happened."
"So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."
~From Peter Jackson's Lord of the Rings
"For like a shaft, clear and cold, the thought pierced him that in the end the Shadow was only a small and passing thing: there was light and high beauty for ever beyond its reach."
~J.R.R. Tolkien, Lord of the Rings; When Sam looks up into the sky to see a star shining through the darkness of Mordor
"Kamui, do you have something wroth protecting? Someone you want to be happy, even if you become unhappy?"
"I see. Then it will be all right. You won't choose the wrong path."
"There's just no way the future can already be decided!"
"That's true...Maybe you'll be able to change the future."
"Become stronger, Kamui...So that you can protect Kotori and Fuma. So you can protect your loved ones."
~X, conversation between Kamui and his mother
"...even if I know the future, I can't do anything. Even the person who was dear to me...and you. I couldn't save either of you."
"But...you saved Shirou-kun. That's all I need. I also knew...in my dreams that my brother and Shirou-kun would be killing each other. But I couldn't do anything either."
"What awaits Kamui is a sadness harder than death itself. The pain of losing you. Then fighting against and hurting the person he looked up to like an older brother."
"I believe in him. I believe that Shirou-kun will not lose, no matter how hurt he gets. Besides, Shirou-kun is the only one that can save my big brother."
"...tell them I love them both and...that the future still hasn't been determined."
~X, conversation between Kakyou and Kotori
"Kamui...it's alright to stay here forever if that's what makes you happiest. But as long as you don't get out of here, nothing will start and nothing will end. Just like me...in truly important times, all you can do is watch. You can't do anything."
~X, Subaru while talking to Kamui's heart
"...I was able to return to reality from the pain in my heart to turn the future I dream into reality. You should choose too...to keep balming yourself in your memories or to return to reality with a wish."
"If I wish it anything can come true?"
"I'm not sure about that. But nothing can be done if you don't wish for it. From here you need to return to the real world and do it yourself."
~X, conversation between Subaru and Kamui's heart
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
Okay, so after way to long an absence I am thinking of starting to post here again. Probably no one still reads this, which I totally understand. Something I have become quite interested in is civil rights and multiculturalism in the schools. I will post more later. ^_^
Monday, October 10, 2005
Well, I've been busy writing rather than ranting. Well mostly. Life has sucked, even managed to total my car, or I should say another guy did. Anyway, once my life is more settled I will update more, but in the mean time I've been writing and drawing like crazy to get through these emotions and this period of my life. I suspect over winter break I shall rehaul my main site and make it anime reviews, artwork and writing. You can see my new writings here.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
I broke...my bra...how the fuck do you break a bra?! I dunno, but I did it. I was at the gym...I wasn't even using my arm muscles!! That stupid underwire thingy...and I didn't know what it was until I got home cuz I wasn't about to inspect it there. *shakes head* This whole day has be "what the hell?" I just...it's a BRA...I give up. My brain is broken because I can't logically figure out how this one happened. And I think I'm scared to ask so...hehe. I need sleep. Yes, sleep is good. Good thing I did laundry. :P
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
I felt the need to share this as I feel it important for people to understand and experience what is really going on in the world.
Ask yourself these for questions:
1. Did you come for a decent stable home for the most part? (meaning not terrible abuse)
2. Do you like to do things with your hands or mechanics?
3. Do you consider yourself intelligent?
4. Do you like to/have you look at porn?
If you answered yes, you my friend fit this country's Federal Profile for a pedophile. Congratulations, now you can serve the rest of your sick and twisted years behind bars for your perverse behaviors.
The sad thing is, I'm dead serious. These are the questions a psychologist appointed by the Federal Government asks to determine if you have a problem. I don't know about you, but that accounts for about 99% of men I've met and probably more than 60% of women. It's like I told someone, the shrink is paid to find a problem, so therefore if you are seeing the shrink you have a problem. Even if you don't, the shrink must prove you have one because the government says you do. Just like they said there were weapons of mass destruction. Under the sand. Maybe they were moved to Iran?
As much as this infuriates me, what makes me more pissed off are all the stupid idiot people out there pushing for harsher laws and stricter punishment when they don't know the first thing about what they're talking about. That will only put people away who don't deserve to be treated like a pedophile, because they aren't. Most of these people are stupid kids who happened upon some porn and were just too stupid to report it. That is who you are wanting harsher laws for.
If these people really thought about this, they would know you can't solve a problem but attacking the symptom, you have to attack the cause. Instead of going after stupid 18 year old kids, go after the 40 year olds who have been convicted of these crimes repeatedly and you keep letting out. Leave the rest of the people who are trying to put things behind them be. Because you know what's going to happen, eventually the laws will be so damned strict and so fucking broad that everyone will fit in it including your nearsighted ass. The only thing is, by that time there will be no one left to speak up for you.
People are so quick to throw away freedom and civil rights--be they their own or others--for a false sense of security. Was it Ben Franklin who once said, "those willing to throw away their liberty and freedom for a promise of safety deserve neither liberty nor freedom." (Or something to that extent) People need to take a minute, SHUT UP, and figure out what is REALLY going on. As cold and heartless as things sound these arguments aren't about YOU and your personal crusade. Your actions are affecting millions of lives and that is on YOUR soul. I'm all for making the world a better place, but not at the cost of making the definition so damn broad everyone fits in it. That's ridiculous. I want to solve the PROBLEM, that way the symptoms will take care of themselves. Anyone allowing themselves to be blindsighted by symptoms either doesn't really care about the cause or are too emotional to think about the future beyond their own life.
Speaking of our goverment...ummm...Iran. By the way, if I hear one more person relate 9/11 to Iraq I'm going to slap them. Osama Bin Laden!!! DAMMIT PEOPLE, stop playing into the twisted stories the media tells. So we're in Iraq...and what happened to Afghanistan? We need more and more troops...in fact perhaps we should prepare for the draft that isn't going to happen because the war will be over soon. Just like it was going to be over soon a couple years ago. -_- And so we aren't going to say anythign to North Korea...cuz we're pansies? I oppose war more than the next person but seriously now...you want me to support a war in Iran when you've known about North Korea for many many MANY years and done nothing. I'm just at an absolute loss when it comes to our government. I think government should be looked at like the school system is being treated. If they suck one year, we remove them and replace them with new people. If they continue to suck for three years they're fired. We keep replacing them with new people until we are satisfied with the results. Besides, it's only fair to expect the same high achievement from our government as we do from our fourth and fifth graders, right?
Thursday, August 04, 2005
After...mmm, I'd say six or seven HOURS of scanning my computer for viruses and spyware, Dell had me reinstall windows. Now...I actually had to delete the C: partition and then recreate it. I deleted my computer. Then reinstalled windows and had only a recycle bin. Scary. I lost every frackin' file on my computer. I had over 110,000 files. And on top of that, IT STILL DIDN"T FIX THE PROBLEM!!! So I call my ISP because Dell says it's a problem with the router, and the ISP tells me it is the computer. After arguing that waiting two weeks to have someone come out and see if they can fix it, the guy has me unplug the modem and router and put them back in and viola! It works just fine. SOOOOO, I lost everything for nothing.
Of course, I learned how to right click on the desktop, hit properties and then display and thus change my background. *blink* Of course I did hear of the doctor who couldn't get the CD to load because he was putting it in upside down. *bangs head into wall repeatedly* Time to sleep.
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Seriously...if you can't spell for shit, use the frackin spell check in word then cut and paste. Moreover, if you can't even speak with typical English grammar, DON"T POST! I swear, if I can't figure out what you're saying that's pretty damn sad considering I speak four languages and can understand most people who have an accent or are talking with their mouth full. They claim to be in college--studying chemistry. If you can't even type two coherent sentences in a forum, you sure as hell aren't going to pass chemistry. What is wrong with people? A blog is one thing, a forum is another. Please, if you can't post a coherent thought and you're going to get angry at people when you are too lazy to read what they said or find out if they even responded to you, and you are too lazy to TRY to type coherently, do us a favor and don't F'IN post!
*breathe, breathe* Okay, in other news, my body hurts from the amount of exercise the past couple of days. I think the headache is permanent now. Joy. On another note I got a Sony Psych to listen to while I exercise. It's kewl...I downloaded the Stand Alone Compex OST 1 and FMA soundtracks into it. Much better to exercise with music. And it's a hell of a lot smaller than an IPOD. :P Anyway, pounding headache...later!
Sunday, July 24, 2005
There should be an age limit
Alright. I understand that the internet is a wonderful fun magical place for all ages and opinions to learn and communicate. HOWEVER. What IS it with stupid people lately? Maybe I just shouldn't try to keep up with forums or the like. I mean...this one person, it took me seriously a full minute to decipher: carictores I had to think in SPANISH--which I don't speak fluently by the way, to see Characters. Granted now I see how it looks like some related words, but I doubt this person knows them. Here is a list:
That is ONE post. Almost seven complete sentences. The next post:
That post is almost four sentences long and in it, the person proclaims s/he doesn't understand why someone would listen to another simply because they are much older than they are. -_-
I swear to God, I am going to make it my sole purpose in life to set up an internet filter. The really sad thing is that this forum PROVIDES a spell check for the post!! And oh how funny it was that the person who posted "you all can't handle the truth so I'm not going to tell you the truth" was completely ignored by myself and another person who just continued our posting around him/her. GEEZE! Where do these people come from??
At least cherries still taste good. In other news the story I'm currently writing is totally fucked up. ^_^ In fact it's so...umm, not what I was really planning that I might take this section out. We'll see where the other parts of the story come into play. However, this part has the sister defeat the enemy too late and in an effort to save her brother's soul from hell, she rips it out of his lifeless body and basically purifies it, taking the injury of it upon herself. I also haven't decided if he dies, she dies, they both die, or they both live. We'll see. Yeah, you'd think I was smokin crack. If you wanna read it, go to http://www.livejournal.com/~autumn_anrui/ and click the fake cut.
The funny thing is I sat down with something entirely different in mind, but the music I was listening to just sorta...I dunno. It's lacking editing and a LOT of little details that I just simply haven't put in. It was one of those, brain faster than finger things, so it was everything just to get it typed out. I'll prolly edit it some tomorrow. Then again, I may have an entirely new section. Twenty two pages, not bad for about maybe 3 or 4 hours. Ah well, back to my cherries and FMA music.
Friday, July 15, 2005
Why do I love cereal, but only in the middle of the night? And my obsessive craving of milk, where did that come from?
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Warning! Escapee on the Loose
Suspect: mosquito, approximately the size of my thumbnail. (And I have tiny hands)
Crime: sucking my blood and causing annoying itchy spots about the size of a dime
Location: two on left arm, one on right elbow, one on side, one on back of my left shoulder; five total
Whereabouts: unknown, perpatrator disappeared by midday
If you have any information regarding the capture and/or preferrably death of this ciminal, please let me know.
*grabs can of raid and piece of wood to go hunt it out with a crazed anime face*
Seriously, FIVE TIMES. It wasn't that big...I be it drank itself to death. Fucker. HOW do they find me. I wasn't even outside. ARGGH!! Stupid pale Irish skin. In other news, I just finished doing a ton of research on the story I'm working on...omg. I actually forgot how much I missed research. I remember having 20 books on the formation of the solar system spread around my dorm, each opened to a different part while I'd pull one into my lap and type. *Sigh* Those were the days. And I'm not kidding, it was twenty books. I had to carry them. I took ten at a time. Not much has changed...I still stay up at all hours writing and reading. Kind of nice to find SOME consistancy in my life. Lately, everything else is falling apart. Heh, maybe I'll be able to throw this story together and get it published...then again I'll probably get frustrated halfway through and just glare at the computer. Ah well, rome wasn't built in a day they said. By the way, you ever try to research angels and demons? Oh my god. There is a lot of just crap on the internet. There is also relatively little for what I'm looking for. However, I think I found enough tonight to form the backbone of the story. Sad thing is, this is just the foundation, not even the main plot story-wise, and its just about the history of the characters who are ALREADY DEAD. Meh, leave it to me to do that to myself. The idea came first, then I realized I couldn't progress too far unless I knew where everyone came from and why. Wheee...
By the way...not that anyone else cares, but they took Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex off adult swim and put on Cowboy Bebop. Not that I have anything against bebop, in fact I own the series. But dammit I wanted to watch Ghost in the Shell again to try to get more of it since I missed the first couple episodes. Oh well, at least I get to watch the first ten episodes or so of Fullmetal Alchemist. I had read the manga--not that the anime follows it at ALL--so I had some idea of what was going on, but still. Is good to see the beginning of the anime too.
Just because I'm starting to ramble from sleep deprivation. I bought a new toothbrush. A sonic care. Because I can't afford to have problems with my teeth and the difficulties my mom is having worries me. I hate genetics and it seems I got the shaft on them all. Anyway, just FYI in case you've never used an electric toothbrush...I didn't know what I was expecting, but I put that thing in and all the sudden my whole damn mouth is vibrating. You can't push on it or it stops, but it's really hard to fight back the automatic response of BRUSHING with a toothbrush. It worked really well, but it felt like I had a small current of electricity in my mouth or something. My mouth was buzzing. It's kinda funny if you think about it....
Friday, July 08, 2005
Man, so I joined a forum and have discovered a couple of things. Most the other forums I have joined were book forums (cuz I'm a DORK) and everyone had read the books. (And just FYI the sky is a beautiful purple-pink color. Sometimes it's a good thing to stay up all night.) Anyway, I'm used to people knowing what's happened and in this forum not everyone has. It's terribly frustrating to not be able to discuss beyond into the more finer points of the plot because they simply haven't seen it. So I have resigned myself to basically saying nothing unless it is in a spoiler thread. The other thing is DAMN some people are vicious. I made a comment about Fullmetal Alchemist not being continued after the movie because I thought it would take away from the storyline the similar to what happened with Rurouni Kenshin after the Kyoto Arc. Someone replied--although they weren't nasty thankfully--correcting me by saying the reason the arc was so crappy was because they did it without the manga being written. So I responded politely saying I wasn't referring to that, but that if they would have stopped there, it would have been good, but because they didn't, it sucked. It sucked ass. Since FMA doesn't exactly follow the manga AT ALL, it really is a moot point. I was using it to illustrate and example of how when people decide to do a second set they always seem to fuck it up. I guess maybe I should have chose Cowboy Bebop and said well it ended, so it needs to stay ended. (Although I would have had to HIDE that text because it would have implied important characters died--whether they did or not) Sometimes you just can't win for losing. I understand what the person is saying, that it would have been good--MAYBE--if they waited for the manga, but then again, these are the same people who decided to go on without the manga they were trying to follow, so I really don't think I would have trusted it would have been good. Besides--IT"S NOT A FRACKIN KENSHIN FORUM! adrrrr. ARGH.
But seriously, there are a couple of people on there who like attack other people verbally...kinda makes you not want to post there. So yeah...I may be looking for a new place to discuss FMA. Damn. However it was amusing to read the post about the guy buying bootlegged stuff on ebay or whatever...cept he's posting it on the Funimation site...the company he's screwing over...yeah...genuis. He got attacked by the wolverines too. *toothy grin* Sometimes it's more fun to just watch. ^_~
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